Nostalgia [no-stal-juh, -jee-uh, nuh-]


1. a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.

The thing is, I just found out from an old classmate of mine that the second batch of seniors from Bethel International School has graduated high school. If you don’t already know, his class is my old one, the one I used to be part of before I left and moved to England and I honestly feel happy for them, though I couldn’t help but feel a poignant sadness about the whole thing.

I mean, graduation. That’s like, leaving government enforced education and choosing to continue your learning further. Apart from those (slightly) overbearing parents, no one’s forcing you to go to college or university or whatever it is you want to call it. It’s your choice.

Anyway — college (or university) is a big step, and it’s a big step that I might have taken if I had decided to stay in the Philippines and just not leave. Of course, pursuing my education here in England is a valid and, arguably, the better option for me… but I miss my friends back home.

Year 2010, Junior Year

Though we weren’t the most innocent lot, I miss the naivety.

Though life was just as tough then as it is now, I miss the easiness of it.

Though I have some awesome friends here, I miss my classmates/friends/family-of-sorts.

I’m not usually this weepy (not that I’m crying or anything… I just have this ache in my chest), but I suppose looking through those old pictures in Facebook did not help. Don’t get me wrong: I like Facebook and the fact how simple it is to save memories, but can’t it stop fueling the fire?? Continue reading


You Know When You’re A Writer When…

It’s amazing how much people can change over the course of a few months. The list below is from the Notes section of my Facebook account — yes, Facebook still has Notes. Reading through it, I realise that my mindset now differed from my mindset then. I’m not saying that I’m a completely different person, just that my priorities changed.

I suppose growing up, even the tiniest bit, can alter a person. Nothing drastic, of course… but it’s enough to be felt. Now, I barely have time to write, let alone think about writing, because I’m concentrating on my courses. Ohh, the easiness of youth. *sigh*

Anyway, below is the list. The ones italicised were true of me seven months ago; the ones underlined are still true of me now. Enjoy!

1) you think of your friends as characters

2) you write them into your story

3) you get revenge on people by basing a mean character off of them in your story

4) you have conversations with your characters — the fictional ones, not your friends in the real world — and, most usually, they hate you for making their life miserable (or WAY too exciting for their liking)

5) you have some books you read for enjoyment, some you read for school, and others you read just to get ideas on how to make your stories flow better

6) everyday, you daydream about how to plug today into your story.

7) the end of your pinky is usually stained with ink (if you’re left-handed) or pencil lead.

8) you have way to many saved Word docs in your computer.

9) your drawer is overflowing with copy-paper of your printed stories/filled notebooks.

10) you mentally correct anything you read subconsciously with better words and phrasing.

11) even in the most dire of situations, you’re thinking about how it would be best written

12) you hear a song on the radio and you automatically think ‘Hey that’s a good plot idea…’

13) you constantly play the same song over and over to get into a ‘mood’ for one of the chapters

14) you wake up in the middle of the night to search for a pen/laptop/notebook to write down a story idea because you’re afraid that you’ll forget it by morning  Continue reading

Woah, I didn’t see that coming…

I know I’ve been busy with school the past few days, but… have things really changed that much? I went to sleep last night (one of the most epic Fridays I’ve had recently), and I wake up to find that Facebook has some new updates.

Don’t get me wrong — I’m all up for the betterment of our social networking experience, but this is just too much so soon. Every time I check my News Feed, I feel like the Friends lists on the left hand side are staring at me. ‘Oh look, my Family is gonna see my status update… better make it less vulgar.’ ‘Oh look, my school friends are gonna see it as well, better make it sound cool.’ ‘Oh look, I have a list for Acquaintances — better not put any important information either.’

It’s just TOO MUCH to worry about!!

This is the new Wall layout, to be released soon. There’s a customisable cover art at the very top, which is like a header (I get flashbacks of Bebo with this). Also, the timeline format of status updates and recent activity kinda reminds me of Twitter…


What ever happened to ignorance is bliss, huh? Back then, I couldn’t care less about what I said on Facebook (there was even that one time I got scolded by my aunt because I lacked tact). Now however, all I could think about is that my Family, my school friends, Acquaintances and whoever-else-is-on-a-list is going to hear my random shout-outs… and I feel slightly self-conscious.

Argh, maybe this is my subconscious telling me I should quit.

Naaah… it couldn’t be ;D

By the way: If you want the new Facebook timeline now than waiting for its release on October 1st, then follow this link for a step-by-step how-to.

Gotta Love Video Conferencing

Ask me what video conferencing is before last night and I will answer you with a blank face. Despite the fact that yes, I am an avid user of the internet, I’m not that interested in connecting with other people other than in Facebook. I used to have Yahoo! Messenger, but then I lost that when my old laptop died on me and since then, I figured with the dial-up connection that I have, there was no use downloading a new one.

But then last night happened. My best friend from England sent me this link to so that we can use our webcams to see each other and, what can I say, I was floored by the results.

It’s been absolutely ages since I’ve caught up with my best friend. Yeah, we talk on Facebook and all that, but it’s really much, much better to be able to see each other, even if it’s just on the computer screen. Which is why, though I’m not a big fan of chatting or anything of the sort, I had fun chatting with my best friend.

It gives me a warm feeling that even though we’re separated by countries and seas and continents, even though we haven’t seen each other in real life since 2007, we can still be friends. Who says a long distance relationship is destined to not work out? With the wonders of technology and internet nowadays, you can do anything.

#7 – A picture of your most treasured item

Most treasured item? I think you mean my most treasured items. I can’t live my life without my MP4, which has all my music in it, my cell phone, which has sentimental value, and most of all my laptop, which has all my thoughts, opinions, stories… and it gives me access to internet! I know it’s quite shallow, but all these things keep me sane.

pink LG laptop, pink Sony MP4, pink Motorola Razr

  • Without my music, how am I supposed to cope whenever someone makes me really, really mad? I depend on Busted to calm me down. Plus, other songs offer inspiration for stories.
  • Without my cell phone… well, how am I supposed to text my friends and family? That phone has been with me for five years and I bought it with my own money. Yes, twelve year old me saved up all of her pocket money to get that thing (that kinda explains the lack of touchscreen… XD)
  • And finally, without my laptop, how will I do my school work? How am I supposed to write and read stories? How am I supposed to talk with my mom? I rely on Facebook to stay connected with various family members who are abroad.
So yeah, those pink things up there are my most treasured items. Can’t blame a girl for not parting with them.